Are you an act, or are you an object? Are objects really just immaterial acts, continuing on a set of processes until they morph into something else? Well, that’s the idea here… or, at least one of them. Molecules and atoms are made of smaller particles. No one has found the one indivisible particle upon which all material reality is constructed yet. There’s enough evidence, in my opinion, that no one single and final particle will ever be found to explain the physical plane.
I rather found my philosophy on notions that our world is just energy at its foundation, fixed and stationed in certain frequencies, patterns, and repetitions. From a bird’s eye view, I see everything in circular, cyclical, galactic, and hurricane-like formations—just wind, energy, and self-contained energy (particles) swirling around experiencing something other than rest, peace, absolution, and undisturbed unity.
The idea behind this drawing particularly came from seeing images of some hydrogen orbitals. In science books and literature, models of atoms look like solid billiard balls. This is of course founded in Western science’s obsession with physical matter, and hard matter being the explanation for everything that ever existed. Well, when real pictures can now be taken of hydrogen atoms, one sees that the particle is rather more like a cloud with varying degrees of density; a hovering nanoscopic act, self-contained by a rudimentary awareness.
Philosophers used to discuss the atom because they thought that it was the perfect indivisible particle on which reality was made. Philosophers, such as Epicurus, Democritus, Herodotus, Aristotle, and even all the way up to Karl Marx, believed that hard matter was the explanation for everything physical. In fact, some of them, like Marx, believed that hard matter was the ONLY explanation for anything, and anything hinting at mysticism, non-physical, or the paranormal were just the delusions of possible madmen.
They were trying to find a plane of existence in which the individual person could find ataraxy—a state unperturbed by the lacks manifested in physical reality. The word individual really means pertaining to being undivided, unified, and therefore lacking conflict. I mention all of these theories because I’ve been on a search to explore the self, myself, others, and what reality is.
In my searches and explorations, I frequently make drawings and diagrams to give further detail as to what I’m understanding. This is another drawing in that journey. It gives a visual idea of smaller and smaller particles constructing greater and greater wholes; organic, if you will. The objects that manifest in drawings, such as these, are usually permeable—that is, the mosaic bits and pieces render them as lacking solidity, while also suggesting energy and some tension.
The original drawing for this image isn’t as complete as you see here. I had to copy and repeat the binary aspects to it to give it a whole and proportionate body. I just didn’t have enough space with the paper I was drawing on, and I knew I would be able to finish it up in a digital editing program, so, instead of taping more paper to the original paper, I completed what you see here on the computer. It still looks like a paper drawing for the most part. You can see some of the text embedded in the layers popping out. The text and paper is from an old school science textbook.
Art of eVan 